Failure?

How do I seem to fail at everything I do? Even being a good christian. I spend too much time on the computer, eat too much and go to movies. I don't spend enough time in pray or reading the bible. I am trying but my mind doesn't always go to that. Is that normal? On top of all that I may have very well ruined the one chance a girl named Samantha had at finding the truth. I can't say it's easy to know I may have messed up her chance. I can't say I agree with the way things were being done. But who am I to choose? Who am I to mess that up for her? Because of my uncanny ability to ruin everything my brother, they only person I have to talk to right now, is angry with me. I can't trun back time and take back what was said. I meant it all so I'm not sure I would take any of it back. I just hope that I can learn to portray my ideas in a way they won't be misunderstood. And that I could leave this feeling of failure in California where I thought it would have stayed in the first place.

Baptized

Yesterday I was baptized. I never thought it would change anything, that it was just an announcement to the world I would do my best to serve God everyday. It did change some things though, I called my dad after service and talked to him about his salvation. Something I would never have thought I would do. Fact is I didn't know where my dad would spend enternity and I was worried. I don't want anyone I know to suffer the tortures of hell but some people don't want to be helped. I can only hope that I can live up to my promise and that He'll use my life for His work. That some might be helped or brought to accept Jesus Christ as their personal savior. While I am a young christian and not always sure of the things to say to the lost I know the horrors of hell as the Bible tells them. If you do not know God please take the time to learn about him, hear the truth for yourself.