We haven't gotten in a fight since I've been back. I can't figure out if yesterday was a fight or not. I don't know if you could tell how angry and upset I was at myself. I don't believe I will get behind the wheel of a car and drive like that agian. It was reckless and stupid and could have cost us both a lot more than it has. You were so angry and I didn't want to say the wrong thing so I didn't say anything. The faster I got out of that car the sooner I could break down. I don't know what to say today. I am upset and angry and full of confusion. You said you were tired yet you didn't go home. You say you forgive me yet you blew me off. I am trying not to read into it, to take it personal but I can't. I feel like crap and I don't know how to fix it.