I almost

actually went out on a limb and did something crazy. But my overly cautious self when ahead and did the safe thing and ask. I mean I was/am pretty sure had I showed up he wouldn't be disgruntled by the distraction until he was sitting down for his test. Yeah I know that's important but I can 't help feeling a bit devious and naughty. Maybe if I had my own car I wouldn't have been so hesitant. But I think I might have felt really rejected if he had turned me out. So I spared myself some pain in a sense. Self-preservation is never a bad thing. I guess there are just some branches I won't climb without knowing for sure I won't fall. The fact that I even want to venture as far as to ask means something right? Well this twisted mess I leave myself in will untangle over time.