For a week I struggled, worried, second guessed my choice for move here to VA. Everyday I talked to Clay and I missed the comfort of his arms. Everynight I went to sleep more distraught and confused, praying to God for guideance. Last Sunday He answered my prayers delivering a message through my pastor just for me. Clay wanted me to compromise my beliefs and standards. He didn't want to help me become strong in the Lord but weaken me, pull me from His light back into the darkness. Clay didn't know it and I won't tell him but that it the way I see it. I am here, away from the darkness that had surrounded my life, living in God's truth, walking stronger by Him everyday. HE blessed me with cutting off the lingering attachment I had to Clay. While I still care dearly for him and am happy he is trying to fix his mistake I just don't want to be with someone who won't support me and help my grow in the Lord. Understanding that and knowing it really eased the emotional rollercoaster I was on. Clay I love you, and always will but finally it is a love for a friend not for a mate.
God is wonderous and will spare you strife if you some to know Him as your Savior and Lord. I have seen this with mine own eyes.
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