Typical

If you've been reading you will know that Clay-my ex-is what I have mostly been writing about. It's ironic how typically young I am in that sense. I know there is more to life than just my stupid problems with him but it just happens to be the center of my universe right now. I sound like any other teenager in love and blah blah blah. I know, I know. I always prided myself in being more mature and being able to see past my problems because they were small and insignificant to the big picture. This seems to important like it always does with boys. Why am I such a girl sometimes? Ok, it's better than the alternative most days but still. I am a sucker for love. this is the real truth. Where boys being the center of my universe stems, I think. But then again what girl isn't. I like to think that my need for love is so much more intense than the average person of 20 or so years. But that's not right I think. We are all searching for our other half. The person that makes living more than just surviving. There is nothing special or irrational about my need. I realize this but still cannot convince myself. That is another human trait, we all want to be individual but end up all being the same. We all rebel, and pout and throw attitude. In the end we are basically the same characteristally, anyways.