Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Trust
Whenever I'm asked how I'm doing it's always the same. Good days and bad days. Just when I think I'm over the worst of it some light is shed on another matter of darkness. Why do people lie? Do they think it makes it easier? It hurts more in the end. Finding out the truth after so many times the lie has been repeated is like learning what you thought was red is really blue. How can I ever trust again? He said he loved me and always will but he lied. Those two concepts don't fit for me. I am honest even if it hurts me. I never said I love you unless I meant it. That last week all I said was yeah I know. It was bitchy but I couldn't bring myself to lie. Trust has always been an issue for me, adding this situation I'm not sure I'll ever trust again. It hurts to my core. I wonder what other lies he told. And how he could possible repeat them over and over? If you love someone you should never lie, not even a white lie. The concept of deceit should never intertwine with that of love.
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I know Ive said it before, but things will improve, just give it time. Once you find the right person, you will be able to open up and trust again. Try not to be too hard on yourself. Better and more trustworthy HOT men are to come for you Jess!
I love the emphasis on hot lol... As much as I know in my heart of hearts that thigs will improve it's not so easy to convince myself of it when everything has crashed.
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